Rookie

[00:52.69] I never thought this could be me
[00:55.51] I guess you never do
[00:57.82] 'Til it's happening to you
[01:02.40] Like all the fun turns into shame
[01:05.03] And all the could-have-beens
[01:07.85] Rearrange
[01:12.20] So little time, so many crimes
[01:14.82] Guilt like a chain
[01:17.62] Chokes my will away
[01:22.05] Redemption never seemed so cruel
[01:24.82] And all my gods
[01:27.46] Never seemed so weak
[01:32.00] Wake up, engage
[01:34.59] Now derailed and enraged
[01:37.65] It used to be so easy
[01:41.78] Get up, I'm game
[01:44.19] Now I'm sick and I'm tame
[01:47.25] Counting cost with lost
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[01:52.94] Where is the hope they gave
[02:02.64] And don't think that I can't hear you laugh
[02:12.14] I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me
[02:18.74] I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me, I'm only me
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[02:42.38] Drink to pills, to shots
[02:44.54] Turns into shock
[02:45.81] A habit and a pawn
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[02:51.17] For every hand goes round
[02:52.92] The pain gets so damn loud
[02:55.42] The hammer hits and I'm down, and I'm down, and I'm down, and I'm down
[02:59.64] Trust no one, hey, why should I
[03:02.46] They gave me the poison dressed like life
[03:04.77] Cheated, smacked up and diseased
[03:07.19] Cry to sleep and fight to eat
[03:09.68] Used to be a pro at this
[03:11.92] Now I've broken my own wrist
[03:14.62] Rotten teeth and life unsung
[03:16.78] You'll forget me when I'm gone
[03:20.18] Wake up, engage
[03:22.50] Now derailed and enraged
[03:25.50] It used to be so easy
[03:29.66] Get up, I'm game
[03:31.93] Now I'm sick and I'm tame
[03:35.06] Counting cost with lost
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[03:40.22] I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me
[03:49.85] I used to be a lot like you, but now I'm only me, I'm only me
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