Sandwiches

I wanna eat with you
Smile and spend some time with you
Have some barbecue eating just like we used to
I wanna pretend that
We made amends like our relationship didn't hit a deep end i
I saw the truth and it scared me
Thorns in my heart worse than
The time you yelled at Arby's.
I don't wanna pretend that
I don't know anymore
Acting these days is such a sore chore.
I just
I miss the days you would serenade me
Hold me close because i was your baby
I miss those days before our hearts parted ways
You're a stranger
Maybe i should just accept the fate that's sat in front of me
The hurt created by your actions stung me like a killer bee
My raging nightmares that plagued my mind had turned into reality
So much i want yet cannot have
I'm an empathetic wannabe
Wannabe
I'm a wannabe
I'm an empathetic wannabe

Perfection is something that i've always despised yet
I reach towards it like a flightless bird tryna fly
Thinking to myself "will you finally stay?"
If i become someone you can praise or will you see me as a piggybank?
Someone to refill your precious gas tank
I just want some normalcy
Can't you hear me?
So i no longer feel like a weirdo
Tearing up at the dinner table
Like a fucking sicko
I don't know which route to take
Where my hand should reach out to
My little heart broke into two
I compare this love to when i'm staring from a distance
Accepting coexistence
The path with least resistance
A deep fear of abandonment shining in brilliance i
I miss the days you would serenade me
Hold me close because i was your baby
I miss those days before our hearts parted ways
You're a stranger
100 year old demon with a lack of guidance
A burden of living give me just
One more time (one time)
(Just another chance)
(Like you)
Like you'd always say
Maybe i should just accept the fate that's sat in front of me
The hurt created by your actions stung me like a killer bee
My raging nightmares that plagued my mind had turned into reality
So much i want yet cannot have
I'm an empathetic wannabe
Wannabe
I'm a wannabe
I'm an empathetic wannabe

I'm an empathetic wannabe