Virtue's Last Reward

[00:12.99] My virtues paid
[00:15.44] It's my last reward
[00:17.02] Only started rapping cause somebody said I couldn't
[00:18.97] Kept on making music cause nobody said I shouldn't
[00:21.20] Never thought I'd make but nobody said I wouldn't
[00:23.30] When you've done it long enough you get out what you put in
[00:25.61] I was never special but I had passion and put the work in
[00:27.62] All I made was garbage I didn't need to be perfect
[00:30.02] It is kinda freeing to know that you don't deserve it
[00:31.90] Did this for myself so I didn't need to be nervous
[00:34.39] Did this for myself so I didn't need to be hurting
[00:36.57] Focused on the music and everything I was learning
[00:38.46] I was having fun with it, never needed a purpose
[00:40.95] Earnest, I was just happy they could've heard it
[00:42.92] Burn it, I feel that feeling has been deserted
[00:45.38] I'm sick of making music, sick of feeling like I'm worthless
[00:47.81] Sick of staying up all night and
[00:49.23] Stressing bout my words and now I'm sick of
[00:50.24] All the pressure that's rising up to the surface
[00:52.45] I've been drowning in the silence of a bad dream
[00:56.62] They all love it but don't know a thing about me
[01:00.75] Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
[01:05.79] Nothings changing, they are moving on without me
[01:09.14] I paved my way to the top
[01:13.36] So what
[01:15.06] I don't even know what it's all for
[01:18.69] I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
[01:23.02] My virtues paid
[01:25.66] It's my last reward
[01:26.88] I don't even listen to other music, that people make
[01:29.16] I can't help comparing and driving my fucking self insane
[01:31.06] All my peers around me keep on pushing hard to innovate
[01:33.70] I'm just so exhausted but I'm trying not to feel ashamed
[01:35.48] Feel Ashamed
[01:36.04] Fuck
[01:36.80] I should be happy but I cannot help but feel this way
[01:38.47] Every night it feels the same
[01:38.96] Every night I'm struggling to live up to the bar they raised
[01:41.42] Every word I write I hate
[01:42.91] I don't even feel like I belong on stage
[01:44.86] Shut down the voice in my head
[01:46.61] I should just do this for me
[01:49.27] I do not know what I want
[01:51.02] I do not know what I need
[01:53.67] People keep giving my love
[01:55.69] And they want me to succeed
[01:56.99] I have no drive anymore
[01:59.57] I do not have any dreams
[02:02.10] I paved my way to the top
[02:05.93] So what
[02:06.81] I don't even know what it's all for
[02:10.81] I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
[02:15.39] My virtues paid
[02:17.40] It's my last reward
[02:19.25] Where did the fun go
[02:21.15] Where did the joy after making a song go
[02:22.85] How did it get so aggressive and cutthroat
[02:25.16] Heart is not in it
[02:26.19] I'm stopping the blood flow
[02:27.53] Stopping the clock
[02:28.82] Stopping the journey I feel like I'm lost
[02:30.64] Stopping to think of the things I've forgot
[02:32.89] I cannot be who I am with this weight on my back
[02:35.04] I will never be someone I'm not
[02:36.81] I've been drowning in the silence of a bad dream
[02:41.43] They all love it but don't know a thing about me
[02:45.34] Body running on a mix of stress and caffeine
[02:49.98] Nothings changing, they are moving on without me
[02:54.28] I paved my way to the top
[02:57.55] So what
[02:58.50] I don't even know what it's all for
[03:03.14] I've made mistakes that I've not forgot
[03:07.67] My virtues paid
[03:09.76] It's my last reward
[03:11.35] Woaah
[03:17.93] It's my last reward
[03:19.86] Woaah
[03:27.24] It's my last reward
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