Message To A Dead Beat

Dear mother
I've never written to you before
Never could tell you how I felt
From the moment you left, you taught me what heartless meant
You tied that noose around my neck
And this shoe on dead meat
You walked away and left me on my own
Scared of my wrist, said I deserve to be alone
Said you'd protect me, why the fuck did you threaten to kill me?
My birth turned your world cold and upside down
I didn't choose you
If I could I would never admit you
Can't understand someone like you
This isolation I'd kill to forget
Even my fucking self
Straight to the point
Life doesn't mean shit
Thanks to you
I filled my void
With hate and revenge
You made me wanna be dead
But I'd rather kill you instead