Where I'm At

I've got thirty dollars in my drawer
I thought about telling you it's not there anymore
And the things that I keep to myself
Are the same things that I wish you would ignore
I haven't picked up my guitar in a while
Cause it started to make you frown instead of make you smile
But today it makes me feel ok
Like when the numbers one I like upon the dial
And I'm stuck with the words you said to me
Back when we were kids and I was people-pleasing
But here I am thinking I've changed
I'm still the same I do not disagree

But I wanna be better than that
But this is who I am
And this is where I'm at
Yeah, one day I'll be an honorable man
But this is where I'm at
This is who I am
This is who I am

I thought this was it at twenty-four (Happy Birthday, Woo!)
Turns out it's just a way of keeping score
And I ask myself each year
If you have found what you've been looking for
I have not called my friends up in months
I just wanna let them know I love them very much
And I swear that when I see you I'll do my best
Even though it's not enough

And I wanna be better than that
But this is who I am
And this is where I'm at
Yeah, one day I'll be an honorable man
But this is where I'm at
And this is who I am
This is who I am