Keeping Busy

When does it all come down together
I feel the pain compounding in my head
I look at you and I'm feeling better
I hate to think I rely on you like that
'Cos all you've known is me in a crisis
I wish I could say it's not always like this
I try to separate myself from the grief
'Cos I want you to see who I am outside it

Feeling like grief follows me
It loves my shadow, holds me when I'm cold

Stop
I'm taking my time 'cos I wanna enjoy this and I'm
Finding some joy within all of sadness
I'm feeling pulled from both sides
I start to find it even though it hurts to feel it
All I know, I wanna sit outside my sorrow

Getting on and keeping busy
And they're telling me that I should stop
I wanna be around completely
I slip away whether I like it or not
'Cos I find that moving forward
Is safer for me I'm not trying to ignore it

Feeling like grief follows me
It loves my shadow, holds me when I'm cold

Stop
I'm taking my time 'cos I wanna enjoy this and I'm
Finding some joy within all of sadness
I'm feeling pulled from both sides
I start to find it even though it hurts to feel it
All I know, I wanna sit outside my sorrow

Put a smile on, my love
Every day's a win for us
I know that the odds are stacked against me
But I swear it's coming up
Sometimes I do forget that you're not there to answer anymore
But I still call, leave a note to tell you how I'm getting on

Stop
I'm taking my time 'cos I wanna enjoy this and I'm
Finding some joy within all the sadness
I'm feeling pulled from both sides
I start to find it even though it hurts to feel, it all I know
I wanna sit outside my sorrow

Feeling like grief follows me
It loves my shadow, holds me when I'm cold
I wish for warmth of summer
Christmas comes round and I miss them all