Anesthetized

When will I let go?
My pain is numbing in the worst way.
Blinded by the light.
I let my fear guide me away from you.
Away from here.
Hopeless and afraid.
I've reached the bottom.
I've failed you.
I grow weaker by the day.
So fragile.
I've failed you.
I grow weaker by the day.
So fragile.
Is this bliss or misery?
I begin to claw my way out.
It's not hard to see.
I've failed myself.