I TRIED TO K*LL MYSELF (I) $$$$
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nothing new, nothing changed
never find a haven, been too plain
been too the same for a different game
my decision's made, let the blade speak
let it cut deep, hope it fail quick
let the systems dip till my body's rinsed
i don't care about any new life
tried to gouge my stomach with full force
no course, body made of stone
blade is shrapnel, i ain't lying prone
try to push deeper, but it ain't embedded
structure shredded but my skin the same
darker flame, never knew my name
freeze to death, they look at me strange
lose a life, cannot end my game
you and i, we are not the same
money rain when it snow
you can't tell me to go, you can't tell me to cope
shit progress to demise, really ain't worth to have hope
suicide on my note, tear and tear till i bleed
drop that pause, cease your speech
ay, if i admit defeat
will gensokyo have peace?
hard to say, cause i'll hardly see
they keep me in a grave, they seclude me deep
one side just keep me from my sins
but the other side make me play pretend
treat me like no human, well aware of the fact
thoughts on my mind been stuck on the track
obsessiveness, i ain't real no more
i just want my body gone, please destroy the core
holiday season, bells ringing in the distance
families huddled round the flame, bet they shine, bet they glisten
shit too hard to mouth about, was never taught how to speak
only picked up what i heard, from what was in my reach
heard about guns and their firepower
remove them arms and legs, bet the rain a shower
heard them youkai, they just bled for hours
surprised at the humans, but their sounds were louder
shit appears in the gap when the time is dour
dug through the trash, no youkai attack
they know my need, so they making peace
see how funny it be
feeling weak, just go through with this
disappear, turn your soul to mist
go upward, do not meet abyss
doubt in your mind, know it don't exist
pull the trigger, no ammunition
brace for the noise, know you'll never listen
haven't started mission, running through my mind
told you quick, I don't care about no afterlife
never thinking, bullet cut me off
i crush it to bits, no aroma waft
like it never existed, one in the clip
staying silent, i ain't bullshittin'
decide to doze until my next life
no power, let me dream right
wake me up when my balance right
disc one, then it rewind
never find a haven, been too plain
been too the same for a different game
my decision's made, let the blade speak
let it cut deep, hope it fail quick
let the systems dip till my body's rinsed
i don't care about any new life
tried to gouge my stomach with full force
no course, body made of stone
blade is shrapnel, i ain't lying prone
try to push deeper, but it ain't embedded
structure shredded but my skin the same
darker flame, never knew my name
freeze to death, they look at me strange
lose a life, cannot end my game
you and i, we are not the same
money rain when it snow
you can't tell me to go, you can't tell me to cope
shit progress to demise, really ain't worth to have hope
suicide on my note, tear and tear till i bleed
drop that pause, cease your speech
ay, if i admit defeat
will gensokyo have peace?
hard to say, cause i'll hardly see
they keep me in a grave, they seclude me deep
one side just keep me from my sins
but the other side make me play pretend
treat me like no human, well aware of the fact
thoughts on my mind been stuck on the track
obsessiveness, i ain't real no more
i just want my body gone, please destroy the core
holiday season, bells ringing in the distance
families huddled round the flame, bet they shine, bet they glisten
shit too hard to mouth about, was never taught how to speak
only picked up what i heard, from what was in my reach
heard about guns and their firepower
remove them arms and legs, bet the rain a shower
heard them youkai, they just bled for hours
surprised at the humans, but their sounds were louder
shit appears in the gap when the time is dour
dug through the trash, no youkai attack
they know my need, so they making peace
see how funny it be
feeling weak, just go through with this
disappear, turn your soul to mist
go upward, do not meet abyss
doubt in your mind, know it don't exist
pull the trigger, no ammunition
brace for the noise, know you'll never listen
haven't started mission, running through my mind
told you quick, I don't care about no afterlife
never thinking, bullet cut me off
i crush it to bits, no aroma waft
like it never existed, one in the clip
staying silent, i ain't bullshittin'
decide to doze until my next life
no power, let me dream right
wake me up when my balance right
disc one, then it rewind