Even After
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โฑ๏ธ 3:46 duration
๐ ID: 27745311
๐ Lyrics
Mm, mm
I didn't want to do this
I swear to God, I didn't
But you pushed me there
And now I can't breathe inside my own skin
I begged you to love me right
I begged you to see me
But you kept turning away
Kept leaving me empty
I laid in that bed
But my heart wasn't there
I was searching for something that should have been you
And now I hate myself for it
I let him hold me 'cause you wouldn't stay
I let him in 'cause you pushed me away
But every touch felt hollow, every kiss felt wrong
And the moment it was over, I knew where I belonged
Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
Even after the act, there's words left unspoken
I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
God knows this was never the plan
I gave my body, but my soul never moved
Even after I still love you
I keep scrubbing my skin like I can wash it away
But the guilt runs deeper than water can chase
I thought maybe the touch would make me feel alive
But instead, I feel numb while this part of me dies
You say I betrayed you, but baby, so did you
I just bled where you broke me, did what I swore I'd never do
I can't sleep I can't pray
I cannot run what I became
I whisper my sins into the dark
But even God don't take the blame
Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
Even after the act, there's pain left unspoken
I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
God knows this was never the plan
I gave my body, but my heart stayed with you
And even after I'm still yours
It wasn't love, it wasn't me
And it'll never set me free
I didn't want to do this
I swear to God, I didn't
But you pushed me there
And now I can't breathe inside my own skin
I begged you to love me right
I begged you to see me
But you kept turning away
Kept leaving me empty
I laid in that bed
But my heart wasn't there
I was searching for something that should have been you
And now I hate myself for it
I let him hold me 'cause you wouldn't stay
I let him in 'cause you pushed me away
But every touch felt hollow, every kiss felt wrong
And the moment it was over, I knew where I belonged
Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
Even after the act, there's words left unspoken
I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
God knows this was never the plan
I gave my body, but my soul never moved
Even after I still love you
I keep scrubbing my skin like I can wash it away
But the guilt runs deeper than water can chase
I thought maybe the touch would make me feel alive
But instead, I feel numb while this part of me dies
You say I betrayed you, but baby, so did you
I just bled where you broke me, did what I swore I'd never do
I can't sleep I can't pray
I cannot run what I became
I whisper my sins into the dark
But even God don't take the blame
Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
Even after the act, there's pain left unspoken
I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
God knows this was never the plan
I gave my body, but my heart stayed with you
And even after I'm still yours
It wasn't love, it wasn't me
And it'll never set me free
โฑ๏ธ Synced Lyrics
[00:02.63] Mm, mm
[00:13.68] I didn't want to do this
[00:16.55] I swear to God, I didn't
[00:19.55] But you pushed me there
[00:23.37] And now I can't breathe inside my own skin
[00:32.52] I begged you to love me right
[00:35.91] I begged you to see me
[00:38.81] But you kept turning away
[00:42.74] Kept leaving me empty
[00:47.16] I laid in that bed
[00:50.13] But my heart wasn't there
[00:53.52] I was searching for something that should have been you
[00:58.23] And now I hate myself for it
[01:01.31] I let him hold me 'cause you wouldn't stay
[01:04.57] I let him in 'cause you pushed me away
[01:08.12] But every touch felt hollow, every kiss felt wrong
[01:12.44] And the moment it was over, I knew where I belonged
[01:18.73] Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
[01:26.08] Even after the act, there's words left unspoken
[01:33.15] I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
[01:36.69] God knows this was never the plan
[01:40.54] I gave my body, but my soul never moved
[01:43.99] Even after I still love you
[01:54.97] I keep scrubbing my skin like I can wash it away
[01:58.59] But the guilt runs deeper than water can chase
[02:02.09] I thought maybe the touch would make me feel alive
[02:08.81] But instead, I feel numb while this part of me dies
[02:12.54] You say I betrayed you, but baby, so did you
[02:17.88] I just bled where you broke me, did what I swore I'd never do
[02:23.07] I can't sleep I can't pray
[02:26.37] I cannot run what I became
[02:29.51] I whisper my sins into the dark
[02:33.64] But even God don't take the blame
[02:40.03] Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
[02:46.78] Even after the act, there's pain left unspoken
[02:54.11] I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
[02:57.45] God knows this was never the plan
[03:01.28] I gave my body, but my heart stayed with you
[03:05.03] And even after I'm still yours
[03:15.99] It wasn't love, it wasn't me
[03:18.85] And it'll never set me free
[03:34.56]
[00:13.68] I didn't want to do this
[00:16.55] I swear to God, I didn't
[00:19.55] But you pushed me there
[00:23.37] And now I can't breathe inside my own skin
[00:32.52] I begged you to love me right
[00:35.91] I begged you to see me
[00:38.81] But you kept turning away
[00:42.74] Kept leaving me empty
[00:47.16] I laid in that bed
[00:50.13] But my heart wasn't there
[00:53.52] I was searching for something that should have been you
[00:58.23] And now I hate myself for it
[01:01.31] I let him hold me 'cause you wouldn't stay
[01:04.57] I let him in 'cause you pushed me away
[01:08.12] But every touch felt hollow, every kiss felt wrong
[01:12.44] And the moment it was over, I knew where I belonged
[01:18.73] Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
[01:26.08] Even after the act, there's words left unspoken
[01:33.15] I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
[01:36.69] God knows this was never the plan
[01:40.54] I gave my body, but my soul never moved
[01:43.99] Even after I still love you
[01:54.97] I keep scrubbing my skin like I can wash it away
[01:58.59] But the guilt runs deeper than water can chase
[02:02.09] I thought maybe the touch would make me feel alive
[02:08.81] But instead, I feel numb while this part of me dies
[02:12.54] You say I betrayed you, but baby, so did you
[02:17.88] I just bled where you broke me, did what I swore I'd never do
[02:23.07] I can't sleep I can't pray
[02:26.37] I cannot run what I became
[02:29.51] I whisper my sins into the dark
[02:33.64] But even God don't take the blame
[02:40.03] Even after the sin, I still feel so broken
[02:46.78] Even after the act, there's pain left unspoken
[02:54.11] I tried to find me, but I lost who I am
[02:57.45] God knows this was never the plan
[03:01.28] I gave my body, but my heart stayed with you
[03:05.03] And even after I'm still yours
[03:15.99] It wasn't love, it wasn't me
[03:18.85] And it'll never set me free
[03:34.56]