I Wear This Smile As An Armor

Woke up drunk on my own regret
Shadows talking, haven't shut up yet
I paint on charm like cheap cologne
Smile for the crowd, but I die alone

They say, "Don't bring me down, keep it light"
But I'm bleeding out right under your light

So I wear a smile as an armor
While I rot behind the grin
They don't wanna see the trauma
They just want the surface skin
You ask me how I'm feeling
But only if the truth stays quiet
So I lie through my teeth
And smile like a weapon in a riot

Every bar stool priest says "keep the faith"
But faith won't pay these hellbound rates
I'm a pretty wreck in tight disguise
With a joker's laugh and dead man's eyes

So don't pretend you really care
If the truth makes the room too bare

So I wear a smile as an armor
While I rot behind the grin
They don't wanna see the trauma
They just want the surface skin
You ask me how I'm feeling
But only if the truth stays quiet
So I lie through my teeth
And smile like a weapon in a riot

You love the costume, hate the scars
You want the show, not the broken parts
So here's your happy, painted freak
Just don't ask what's underneath

Yeah, I wear this smile as an armor
It's cracked, but still intact
If silence makes you calmer
Then I'll never get to ask
What if someone meant the question
Not just filled the space with lies
Till then, I'll grin and burn it down
Smile like a weapon 'til I die