If I Ever Loved You

Baby, I was not the one
I guess you know that now
But I kept you real distracted for a while

I look back and nothing much
Ever comes to mind
Sometimes I can picture half a smile

And we were thick as thieves
Hung on each others sleeves
Kissing all the time

But if I ever loved you
Shouldn't I be crying?
Shouldn't I be cracking up
And drinking all the time?

Yeah, if I ever loved you
How come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?

I try to figure what has gone
I seem to look the same
Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes

Sometimes the evening comes
I think I miss someone
And then I realize

That if I ever loved you
Shouldn't I be crying?
Shouldn't I be cracking up
And drinking all the time?

Yeah, if I ever loved you
How come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?

And love, it can make your world
Bring you alive but I wasn't dead before
So baby, you ain't hard to survive

Maybe I was not the one
But I had to try
And in the end there's no such thing
As wasted time

I was the interim
Between nothingness and him
So how is that a crime?

But if I ever loved you
Shouldn't I be crying?
Shouldn't I be cracking up
And drinking all the time?

Yeah, if I ever loved you
How come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings looks so bright?