Recovery Position

Is it the shadow in my voice?
Oh, i can barely form a sigh
Is it the music that i make?
Is it the sadness in my eyes?
You put me in position
As it tells you in the book
But i'm a separate chapter
You cannot look it up

My mother had a crying boy
Hung up over the fire
I could not bear to see him
I would not meet his eye
I think that's why i'm like this
The tears they never cease
And yet you never see them
I keep them all in me

I have broken into france
I have stolen into spain
I've been thrown out of italy
And i'll be thrown out again
The dutch never liked me much
And germany the same
I poisoned half the western world
But it never bought me fame