Beer & NyQuil (Hold It Together)

[00:18.40] I took forty-five steps today:
[00:21.03] Couch to bathroom to kitchen to couch
[00:24.47] Thanksgiving '15 in a loft across from a cemetery
[00:29.16] Drinking beer & NyQuil in this old mill
[00:31.45] It's burnt out from a fire back in '93
[00:35.24] Gentrified and standing tall
[00:38.05] I feel like I'm stuck on an island
[00:42.34] I've been more than selfish
[00:44.70] Wishing I could be landlocked again
[00:47.76] I want to do something great
[00:50.17] Instead I'll question my age
[00:52.11] And wonder why I'm such a mess
[01:06.98] And now I want to be more than me
[01:09.95] More for my friends and the four people left in my family
[01:16.41] I'm so sick of everything always bringing me down
[01:18.93] I'll try not to break my neck
[01:20.51] Get my feet on the ground
[01:21.47] So I don't have to be a burden –
[01:23.79] Some sad kid up in bed
[01:44.99] I've resigned my happiness to "lack thereof."
[01:51.89] Guess nothing's perfect in the end
[01:54.22] I'll be alright
[01:57.43] I'll upend every good thing that I'll find
[02:01.58] But I'll keep pissing in the wind
[02:17.05] I want to be the one
[02:20.04] I want to know what I love
[02:24.40] I want to hold it together
[02:31.99] But that's not an option anymore
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