Darkness

suddenly i find
i’ve got darkness on my mind
it's the question mark that keeps me looking
& it's never satisfied
& it's
never what i thought
saying i'm happy when i'm not
no, i got darkness on my mind
leaning out the frame
when it's particulate & grey
i'm perpendicular to my whole being
when i lean a certain way
saying i'm happy when i'm not
finding roaches in the pot
o i got darkness on my mind
some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land
& i
know it's been a long time coming
i'm angry & i know that's weak
& i'm longing out that open window
for whatever it is i seek
some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
& while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land
& i
know it's been a long time coming
i’m angry & i know thats weak
so i’m trying not to be so bitter
i’m just looking at it honestly
well i know it's been a long time coming
i'm angry & i know that's weak
& i'm longing out that open window
for whatever it is i seek
some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land