fox wound

I want to pull me up and lick my wounds with my old sandpaper tongue
And I need to try to stop lying
Need to rip my throat out, and shove it back again
So i can swallow my acid spit

And breathe in my words, my thoughts and reason
The reasons why I'm such a fucking face in the bushes

And all these times I never told my mother, that I want to die, that I've wanted to cry my whole fucking life

And all these times I never told my father,
That I was made a pretty girl,
But shit got fucked somewhere down the line

I'm trying so hard to be someone I can love
But it's so difficult

When I'm stuck making others happy, but I still feel selfish

Sometimes I just need to
Place my temple on the asphalt
And slow my breathing
Til it stops
Listening to the purr of cars
Like a fox in roadkill