Old Friends - Schuylkill Session

Walking outside labyrinthine
Over cracks along under the trees
I know this town grounded in a compass
Cardinal landed in the dogwood

I keep going over it over and over and my steps iterate my shame
How come every out come is such a come down?
Lately afternoon with the shades drawn down
I kept saying I just wanted to see it
Saying "whats wrong with that?"
Needle shaking outlines in the compass
Every out come is such a come down

And I knew it when I saw it
So I did just what I wanted
So I go through with this, I knew happiness when I saw it

I saw your boyfriend at the port authority
It's a sort of fucked up place
Well so I averted my stride on a quick one
He's coming back from going over to your place, huh?
I feel like I could forget about it
I feel like I can mellow out, I don't feel undone in a big way
There's nothing really bad to be upset about
But when I thought I, was getting better I
Woke up on the ground

An appointment or a disappointment
A setback oh another comedown
As if I needed a reminder
Oh
I do only what I wanna
So I go through with this

Walking out in the night time spring time, needling my way home
I saw Leah on the bus a few months ago
I saw some old friends at her funeral
My steps keep splitting my grief through these solipsistic moves
I should call my parents when I think of them
Should tell my friends when I love them
Maybe I should have gone out a bit more
And you guys are still in town
But I got too caught up in my own shit
It's how every out come is such a come down

And I knew it when I saw it
Oh, I did just what I wanted
So I go through with this
I knew happiness when I saw it
And I saw it