Wake Up

I've made mistakes that I've lived with my whole life
I've wronged these people, even left my wife
Apologies mean nothing 'less something's gonna change
So now I'm a better man and it's time to rearrange
Right about this time you were falling apart
Emotionally and physically, but we couldn't make the part
Finally it boiled over, we had our big fight
You're still my sister, man, but we'll never be as tight
And I'm waiting for that phone call to come
Tell me that we've lost you, the demons you've succumbed
And I would be very surprised if you ever realized
Beg for the gun
Beg for the gun