Used To Be

I'm at it again
With no beginning or end
Words that make me unwell
They swell, they put me to bed
Smoke settles in
Debris that floats in the wind
All goes awry, I try to simplify
My own complexion
Stare at the stranger
What's left to redefine?

With so much on the line
I crumble in the climb, I'm spiraling
This not the way I used to be
With nothing to prevent
A careless accident, I remember now
This is not the way I used to be
In need of a friend
But I've gone too far
Chased who I was back then
To find stories in these scars

Make me accept
Am I the same or on par?
In my mind, the grandeur in my head
My place to disregard
Soak in the danger
Stare at the stranger
What's left to redefine?
With so much on the line
I crumble in the climb, I'm spiraling
This not the way I used to be

With nothing to prevent
A careless accident, I remember now
This is not the way I used to
This is not the way I used to be
And I let my ego death bloom
Shed the past, but forever in debt to
All of this, I could never regret you
Cuz back then I could never accept you
And I let
My ego death bloom

And make room for new
And I let
My ego death bloom
And make room