Thirtysomething And Counting

I have come to the point where I no longer refuse
To look myself straight in the eye
Can I do more than I try or do I have to try more?
These feelings of doubt nullified

So now I search for what I really feel
Heart revealed
So surreal

I am swinging between independent and crazy
While I suddenly realize
There is no need for this great divide
What I think I know no longer can suffice

So now I search for what I really feel
Heart revealed
So surreal

As I crave for company
I enjoy the silence in between
Friends surrounding me
Yet solitude is overwhelming
Self imposed quarantine
Quarantine

So now I search for what I really feel
Heart revealed

Search for what I really feel
Heart revealed
So surreal