Would you ever understand

For so long I've been there
Always looking after you
No matter if the sun goes down
If the light destroys me
I was all you do
Screwing my tune
Screwing my sleeve
Rocking my life on the knife
You were just always there
To everything which composed my life
And I was always there
Behind the fucking darkened curtains
Using me as a tool
As a prize that you show proudly
And once the show is over
You stuff it like a ground up leaf
And I was always there
Behind the fucking darkened curtains
Show off again you bitch
But your world is not sure, not certain
You've been pushing too much
I don't think I can take one more sec
My love you've been nothing at all
And I wish you were dead
But I know that you lie
Through my bones I will punish you
For what you've done
Your eyes won't see the dreams I've had
When I am in pain
You'll miss me
You'll feel the pain
From all your poise
Nobody cares
No matter how deep
As I was too like you did before
Lonely when you're broken
I will sleep
Lonely when you're broken
I will be
Admitted I was there
Would you fucking admit it
You were all my world
Motherfucker you killed it
Dumb bitch I hate you
I wish I could strangle you
Dumb bitch I hate you
I wish I could strangle you
And I won't cry
Nor bleed
Nor cut
Nor feeling down again
I will just destroy you
More than you ever imagined
Cause I will remain in your pain
There is something in inflicting
The same shit that you did to me, babe
I just hope that once dead
You would understand me one day
I wouldn't be proud of me
By the way I
When I am in pain
You'll miss me
You'll feel the pain
From all your poise
Nobody cares
No matter how deep
As I was too like you did before
Lonely when you're broken
I will sleep
Lonely when you're broken
I will be