Love of the Father

I hate God 'cause they tell me he loves me
I don't trust their scriptures no I don't trust you
'Cause I can't believe it's true
'Cause when my dad says he loves me he doesn't mean it
I take a stranger's hand
The best that I get
I face my obliteration
I haven't died yet
I drown myself with sex
I live to forget
Angry words from my daddy's lips
"If only you were like the other boys
A better son
A proper son
I wouldn't have to punish you"
Then I'm thrown against the wall
Seraphim spit
He loves you but I know he doesn't mean it
I take this strange man's hand
The best that I get
I accept my subjugation
I haven't died yet
I drown to lose myself
I feel no regret
I reject God 'cause they say he will save me
I can't touch him like the toys on my bed
Use your magic to save me
Then he smacks me 'cross the face
It's ringing
Angels singing
He loves you but I know he doesn't mean it
I take this strange man's love
The best that I get
I provide no indication
I feel no regret
I drown to forget
How could I please him anyway?