I'm not scared

World's too textural
I can't fuckin' sleep
Feels like childhood
Everything's too fuckin' cold
I think these things
Laying here in the dark

I'm cognizant enough
To know the way I am's unfair
And stupid enough that
It keeps fucking happening unaware

And now I need sugar
To give me any happiness
And rot my fucking teeth
So it's easier to die

I don't care if I'm unfair
I don't care how much I hurt you
I'll give into self destruction
Until I'm hated as a hollow self

And when I die
I'll be damned if it isn't soon
I pray hell is real and
I'm left to rot all by myself
As the burden of right is
Charred from my fuckin' body
And I atone infinitely
Just how I always fucking wanted

As a final fuck you
(to all of you pricks)
Why is every breath
A ratio into the fucking sun

I just want
What I deserve
And I'm not scared
Of being wrong

World's too textural
I can't fuckin' sleep
Feels like childhood
Everything's too fuckin' cold
I think these things
Laying here in the dark