I've been watching full length documentaries to pass the time - stripped

I'll pay for your clothes and I'll carry your bag
You know that I'll do anything that you ask
I hate that I love you, so let's make this clear
Being alone is my biggest fear

Don't tell me you love me if you aren't sure
The texts that you send always make my heart burn
I'm sorry for cursing, but fuck you for that
You led me on, you knew I sat
In front of your house with a poster and flowers
I waited, waited, and waited for hours
The sign said 'Baby, please be mine'
You walked out with another guy

But there's still a dent on your side of the couch
Where you sat everytime you came to my house
I hate that I love the smell that you left
I wish that I never woke up when I slept

But everyday that I continue to live is a blessing
I hate it, but it's still a gift
Now why would I give up the life that I have
Just because a girl said I'm trash