Backyards (Reminders of those Things you try to Forget.)

How do I tell you I love you but I fear you?
Push away, maintain my space, once inseparable, now a stranger's face
How do I tell you I miss you but I can't be near you?
Isolate, isolate, I can't remember if I don't see your face

How do I tell you that I don't wanna see you?
We had our fun, I've gotta run
Please, take care

I'm so tired of digging up old memories
Long buried in backyards
Where I was far too fucked up
And tired of my whole life
I feel so fucking useless
When I try talk about this
I think I might be fucked up
From everything that I lovеd
When I was just a teenage faeriе
The people I knew were scared of me
And I think I'm too far gone
To care about it all now
Police people you think are
Causing you discomfort
It's so inconsiderate
You become the shit that you hate
I've been so judgmental
And thrown stones from glass houses
If you could all only see
You're all now blind as I've been
And given that's been over
For several odd years now
I'm free from all you fuckers
Please don't come round again