Dialogues

I've been saving up for your soul
As long as I can recall
Just needed something to tend
Till the fiery end
But every time I give up my foothold
To move toward that light
I get darker inside

I just wanted to be necessary
Didn't matter which purpose I served

You've been growing into the chains
Of a future you couldn't claim
Must've shackled your wrist
To the chances you'd missed
'Cause everything you wanted
Just came through and grazed you
And left without leaving a mark

If we're all meant to be mercenaries
Does it matter which spirit we serve?

But god I'm still circling through
The dialogues I could've had with you
Cause you envied me for my mortality
Till it captured you too

In that cold moment after
My shoulders were shattered
I fell prey to your voice

God I'm still suffering through
The dialogues I didn't have with you
But I envied you for your sanity
Until it fell upon me

You just needed to be a tributary
Didn't matter which river you served
If we're all meant to be temporary
Does it matter which lessons we learn?