Rock Bottom

Coming to terms
With dying alone
Mindless lobotomy
Staring at phone
After having a life
That is empty at most
Braindamaged parasite
Seeking a host
I have 22 years
Worth of baggage,you see
And nobody can carry
Such deathweight for me
I'm expendable
Surely i'm great for the good
But the bad is so bad
That it ruins the mood
Exploding head syndrome
Is always a blast
And I bend over backwards
And land on my ass
Which is always the issue
That's holding me back
Making excuses for people
Who treat me like crap
So I'd stay home from school
But now school is at home
So I lay in my bed all day
Browsing my phone
Neurodivergency
Eating my time
Wasting my life
Being online
Down at rock bottom
Midlife crisis coming soon
Throwing me out from a plane
With no parachute
I have no plans for my life
And nothing to do
Nothing to do
Down in the gutter
Surrounded by sewage drains
Stinking up everything
Till I relapse again
Rock bottom doesn't
Feel so different from my bed
So I guess

Coming to terms
With my spinstery self
Is less of a shame spiral
More like accept
So I'll just live as a vampire
Suck out the fun
Of every person
Who thinks I'm the one
I don't like to imagine
The future at all
But maybe without
All the trouble of love
I'd be fine on my own
Drinking blood from a bag
500 years old
And still just as sad
So the future's abhorrent
And the past is a pain
And the present is empty
And boring and lame
Homemade brain tumor
Eating my skull
Gnawing and gnashing
Head empty no thoughts
And living repetitive
Life's just a bust
Everything's relative
I am just dust
Just a bug you brush off your ear
Singing my songs that nobody hears
Down at rock bottom
Midlife crisis coming again
Throwing me out from a roof
With no working brain
I have no goals for my life
And nothing to say
Nothing to say
Down in the gutter
Surrounded by rusty pipes
Falling asleep
In the shitwater overnight
From shit i have come
And to shit I'll return
That's fine
That's fine