Making It Worse

I'm in austin texas with our newest batch of best friends
Having the time of my life
I'm talking too much and making it worse
I'm probably losing something at this venue tonight
I'm always rushing to leave and leaving things behind
I'm loading out at the last minute tonight and making it worse!

I'm in the van being a crybaby about something i don't remember and
I'm not saying anything

I'm handling the first bad 5 minutes i've had in the last 96 hours
Like my dad went and died again
I'm being snippy with my bandmates for absolutely no good reason
They didn't do anything wrong!

I'm trying to untie myself like a knot
I'm pulling too hard and making it worse
I'm self-mythologizing in the front
I'm self flagellating in the back
I'm self important at the shows
I'm at self check-out at kroger
Fucking the thing up over and over
Praying for forgiveness
From the poor lady who keeps coming over to fix it
I'm cracking jokes and making it worse!