Losing My Shadow

You wanted my love
And I wanted your trust
But I was living a lie
I was down in the dust
Painting pictures for you
Painting pictures for myself
As I've learned to do
And as time fell flat
And I crept in decay
I was lost in a haze
My days drifting away
In my head I knew something
My heart wasn't ready to face

You wanted my love
And I wanted your trust
But I was living a lie
I was down in the dust
Painting pictures for you
Painting pictures for myself
As I've learned to do
I just want you to

I want to live clean
And be better it's true
But the hammers keep falling
I'm not breaking through
It's a head misalignment
I must try to be true
At times I'm cold
My heart is racing
Devil's chasing me
Out my own door
I don't know anymore
I just want you to

Push me around
Play on my fears
Harden my heart