My name ain't forgiven

I learned young how to read a room by the silence
How to hear the truth hiding under the violence
I trusted too hard gave love without breaks
Watched it get twisted watched it turn fake
Every smile hit something I couldn't see
Some folks call it cold I call it memory

I ain't mad at the world just honest with pain
You don't walk through fire and come out the same

They say forgive and forgive but they don't know what I've been
I ain't heartless I'm careful and my name ain't forgiven
So keep your distance when you see me winning
You can thank yourself for making my heart black from the beginning
I learned real quick who was real and who was pretending
Now I move a little slower, yeah I listen before I trust
Still standing right here but I don't give my heart to just anyone

I shook hands with the devil he talk just like friends
Same old excuses same dead end demands
I carried their weight till my back almost broke
Learn love don't apologize after the smoke
Now I don't chase closure I don't ask why
Some bridges burn quiet some burn the sky
I don't wish you hell I don't wish you scars
Life's got a way of showing folks who they are

They say forgive and forgive but they don't know what I've been
And I ain't heartless I'm careful and my name ain't forgiven
So keep your distance when you see me winning
You can thank yourself for making my heart black from the beginning
I learned real quick who was real and who was pretending
Now I move a little slower, yeah I listen before I trust
Still standing right here but I don't give my heart to just anyone

I still help the broken still pray at night
Still believe there's good when the cause is right
But trust is a door I don't leave unlocked
Too many lessons came wrapped in shock

They say forgive and forgive but they don't know what I've been
And I ain't heartless I'm careful and my name ain't forgiven
So keep your distance when you see me winning
You can thank yourself for making my heart black from the beginning
I learned real quick who was real and who was pretending
Now I move a little slower, yeah I listen before I trust
Still standing right here but I don't give my heart to just anyone

I ain't cold I'm just awake
Some scars don't fade they educate