Well Being

Feel its crepines on my skin
Fingers start to twitch
The lonely plague of restlessness
When there's no one else around
Do I even make a sound?
Or am I just an echo
Fading from their consciousness?
Without the amniotic comfort
Of being wrapped in someone else
My mind is left to wander
Lower, further down the well

When meditation becomes suffocation
Where to go? Where to go?
Crawl myself into you

And I'm ashamed to admit it
But it's how I've come to be
My past keeps playing at my feet
I'll refrain to ever bare it
It's not down to me to burden my own company
Oh Christ, it's so god damn pathetic
How I only know myself in the context of someone else
So tell everyone to exit
View me in a vacuum, so pity on a feedback loop
(So pity on a feedback loop)
(Further, down, further, down)

When meditation becomes suffocation
Where to go? Where to go?
Crawl myself further down the well
Where nobody can hear me yell
No sound for God, so just myself
Until the echo begins to swell and expel, no
No, no, I can't bare to
Look, look into what I fear most
The spinning seed, merging, turning, turning
Down, down, who will pull me out?

When meditation turns to suffocation

When meditation becomes suffocation
Where to go? Where to go?
Crawl myself into you