All Night Dread

All night dread
Gone through the motions, stayed up instead
Up feeling restless, I'll play my favorite playlist in protest
I'll waste away through the night in my head
Yet again
Stuck with emotion, I'm playing dead
Facing away from my fear and dread that's all but consumed me
I'll just keep hiding these feelings instead

I can't sleep again
So I'm passing the time with my mind sinking in this melody
Letting night creep in
I will stay here and fester reminded I've wasted everything
(Words you feed me lack all meaning)
Shift the blame play pretend
It's the same in the end
(Felt this feeling, melting, reeling)
I'll be fine, I'll pretend
That it's gone again

Though I try, I know I'll never act the part
Looking back at life so far
Broke my heart

All night dread
Gone through the motions, stayed up instead
Up feeling restless, I'll play my favorite playlist in protest
I'll waste away through the night in my head
Yet again
Stuck with emotion, I'm playing dead
Facing away from my fear and dread that's all but consumed me
I'll just keep hiding these feelings instead

To pretend
Filled with emotion I can't forget
Tossed out and broken, I'll just ignore the signals around me
Rewind the tape and get back in my head
I can rest
Wistful and broken, I hit reset
Time for me's open, my memories tangled up in the past tense
I'll waste away through this life like I'm dead