Deep End

[00:02.21] Yeah, I'm stumbling
[00:04.85] Yeah, I'm stumbling
[00:08.86] I'm stumbling
[00:12.92] Stumbling down (yeah)
[00:14.52] Dark thoughts drilling my brain
[00:16.03] I was hoping they slow down (down)
[00:17.52] If the old me, saw the new me
[00:19.37] I know he would be so proud (proud)
[00:21.22] Then why do I feel like a burden
[00:22.93] I'm hurting my doubts getting so loud (loud)
[00:24.83] Like I should just quit, give up and give in
[00:26.38] I should put my phone down
[00:27.65] Living my life through a screen
[00:28.89] It's got me comparing myself and I hate it
[00:30.94] 'Cause my life is blessed yet feel like I'm stressed
[00:33.09] Just 'cause I'm not famous
[00:34.47] Doom-scrolling, I know it's not healthy
[00:36.58] That's why I'm feeling anxious
[00:37.98] Self-hatred, life wasted, still chasing
[00:39.80] Validation, it's strange when
[00:41.43] I got everything that I wanted
[00:42.67] Yet still feel a calling for something that's deeper than me
[00:44.67] Since I started relying on God for his guidance
[00:46.57] While walking the road of redemption, this road is the darkest
[00:48.61] The lights only shown to those who walk the farthest
[00:50.54] I'm holding on hope, 'cause this road is uncharted
[00:52.22] I'm walking by faith, 'cause I know that I'm guarded
[00:53.77] Guess I'm just evolving, the old me departed, I
[00:55.91] Had to cut the chains of lust and idleness
[00:58.95] I don't know why it's so hard to keep fighting this
[01:00.78] I see my demons conspiring
[01:01.63] Tryna make me slip, stumble down and trip
[01:03.29] Deep in a abyss, death at the bottom
[01:04.95] Done with giving in, this ain't how to live
[01:06.76] I'ma rise again I'll be a problem
[01:08.81] I'm struggling
[01:11.08] Crumbling
[01:12.77] Can't hide no more, I can't run again
[01:16.10] Run again (yeah, yeah)
[01:18.01] Run again (yeah, yeah)
[01:19.71] Run again (yeah, yeah)
[01:21.52] Ooh, nah, nah
[01:26.79] Don't mind me here, I'm just falling down
[01:31.56] Down
[01:33.62] Don't mind me here, I'm just
[01:35.73] Yeah
[01:36.35] Yo, I need a natural reset
[01:37.80] Spent years mishandling regrets
[01:39.31] Continuous thoughts, won't leave and get lost
[01:41.34] I grip on my cross, I need rest
[01:42.90] You may have met them, not me yet
[01:44.44] I stay way off in the deep end
[01:46.32] I wouldn't get close, I'm known to turn ghost
[01:48.47] That's just how I roll, no secret
[01:49.81] I stick to myself, too stubborn for help
[01:51.63] Too tired to buy the lies you sell
[01:53.12] Been scrolling online, while time passes by
[01:55.33] It's like my phone's a digital cell
[01:56.71] I felt invincible till I was ridiculed by who I listen to, which is myself
[02:00.14] Now my life interludes dread that continues to
[02:01.98] Conjure my bitter mood, I should be well
[02:03.80] I mean, look what I have and look what I got
[02:05.88] I would have lost if it wasn't for God
[02:07.48] Making me aware of all the facades
[02:09.05] The fakes, the snakes, the devious plot
[02:10.84] I got 'em on watch, my target is locked
[02:12.59] The journey I'm on's a climb to the top
[02:14.34] I'm sick of knowing I'm enough
[02:15.51] But keep feeling like I'm not
[02:16.89] I'm struggling
[02:19.55] Crumbling
[02:21.12] Can't hide no more, I can't run again
[02:24.42] Run again (yeah, yeah)
[02:26.34] Run again (yeah, yeah)
[02:28.18] Run again (yeah, yeah)
[02:29.84] Ooh nah, nah
[02:35.08] Don't mind me here, I'm just falling down
[02:40.44] Down
[02:41.84] Don't mind me here, I'm just
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