Lovelorn

I never thought I'd go that far
Pretending you're still here
Somewhere in my life
Or that I'm still there
Somewhere in your heart

Here sitting
Staring at the floor
Trying not to drown in these red tears
Hoping to see you
Enter through that door
Before it's too late

Everything would vanish
Once and for all
Once and for all

Too many tears have crossed my face
Too many wasted hours
With the illusion that sooner or later
The darkness around me would fade

But it's increasingly dense and tangible
It almost seems to want to get inside me
I hear your voice less and less
I feel my breath less and less
My hands are getting wet
I'm bleeding just like my heart
Or what is left of it

While I slowly die inside, inside
You have another in your arms
While I abandon myself in darkness
You abandon yourself to someone else

I will keep loving you
Or rather, I will keep on loving your memory
But this time with the awareness that
What I have left of you are only memories
Deeply engraved in my skin
Emotions that nobody can ever make me relive
Including you