Deep Personal Lies

[00:05.65] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:07.15] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:08.75] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:10.14] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:11.24] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:13.09] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:14.35] Let me deep, let me deep
[00:16.02] Personal lies
[00:17.08] Deep personal lies
[00:18.13] I tell myself as I lie
[00:19.43] In bed every night
[00:21.14] That I'm not here
[00:21.97] Or if I'm here
[00:22.47] I'm only here for a few minutes
[00:24.39] And when I'm here
[00:25.39] It's just to bear witness
[00:26.62] Here's my weakness that I freely admit
[00:28.03] I find it difficult (Difficult)
[00:29.88] To freely exist
[00:30.78] I may as well be dreaming
[00:32.50] I don't even feel this
[00:34.01] All of the time
[00:34.56] Am I asleep?
[00:35.63] Or depersonalized?
[00:37.06] What do I mean
[00:38.13] When I say "I"?
[00:39.16] Is I just eye
[00:40.35] Plus ear, plus mind
[00:41.78] Ah
[00:42.68] What makes you human is the sum of your memory, right?
[00:45.27] Reality is nothing but experience, sequentially
[00:47.67] Your taste, and your touch
[00:49.16] And your sight, and your thought
[00:50.72] All mixed together like a melting pot
[00:53.11] And we tell ourselves (tell ourselves)
[00:54.96] That these (that these)
[00:56.35] Stimulants and memories create identities
[00:58.58] I don't know if these identities make me up
[01:01.16] Or if I make them up
[01:03.40] See
[01:04.42] Some of these identities get stronger as you grow up
[01:06.39] But some minds aren't strong all the time
[01:09.13] And stress makes a mess of what you know
[01:11.58] Uh, uh
[01:13.25] What you know, uh
[01:15.03] I am not myself
[01:16.17] 'Cause I do not know myself
[01:17.47] All I know is myself
[01:19.05] Is not a wealth of health
[01:19.87] My self is a puzzle
[01:21.46] Collecting dust on a shelf (on a shelf)
[01:23.36] A jigsaw puzzle I'm afraid to take out
[01:25.67] 'Cause it's missing pieces
[01:27.12] Every morning I wake up
[01:28.30] And try to match some creases together
[01:30.13] But whatever I do
[01:31.56] The pieces fall apart as I move
[01:33.34] A corner piece, I lose
[01:35.19] A side piece, too
[01:36.64] A center piece
[01:37.73] Like a legless centipede
[01:38.75] I've lost my centerpiece
[01:39.41] There can be no peace when this loss doesn't cease
[01:42.09] Call a ceasefire
[01:43.37] I get tired too easily
[01:44.42] And I can't solve the problems of society (society)
[01:47.14] If I can't even piece together what's inside of me
[01:49.72] Society's inside of me
[01:50.92] I'm inside society
[01:52.49] I need to stop overusing the word society
[01:55.71] I wanna be here, ya see
[01:57.53] But you don't hear or see
[01:58.38] Me, and I understand
[01:59.76] Sometimes all the puzzle pieces are there
[02:01.92] The end (the end)
[02:03.42] But most of the time I gotta lie to myself
[02:06.08] And just pretend (pretend, pretend, pretend)
[02:08.99] Imaginary pieces fill in my spaces
[02:11.30] One where my heart is
[02:12.93] One where my brain is
[02:14.26] I want to
[02:14.87] I want, too
[02:16.00] I want like you do
[02:16.83] I'm real, too, so
[02:18.38] I'm real, too, so
[02:19.89] Why does reality feel like a fantasy?
[02:22.27] Why can't I deal with ambiguity
[02:24.14] Like everyone around me?
[02:26.14] I wanna feel real
[02:27.75] I want my wants to feel real
[02:28.88] I wanna be alive, but I die from this Achilles' heel
[02:31.75] I want my head to stop spinning
[02:32.70] Put a stick in that wheel
[02:34.39] Put a stick in that wheel
[02:35.93] Is that too real?
[02:36.87] Have I let on too much on how I feel?
[02:38.41] Let me deep
[02:39.68] Le- Le- Let me deep
[02:41.49] Le- Le- Let me deep
[02:44.41] Let me depersonalize
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