Deep Rotting Fear

I have never
And I never will
Amount to anything
All I've done, All I will create
Falls by the wayside

Sometimes I think about what I'm worth
I curl up, and feel the water cover every inch of me
I care so much and it kills me inside that you
Will never feel the same of me

If I went missing
Would you even notice?
You professed a love to me
I confess it broke me

Your back is turned on me
Until you fucking need me
I listened to your violent tears
But if I fucking disappeared you wouldn't care

I never wanted to die
But more than ever I wish
The ground would open beneath me
And Hell would swallow me whole
I'm embarrassed and ashamed to wear this skin

I hear them laughing at me behind my back
I sense their twisted smirks
Ugly thoughts
They love my pain

Slipping into darker shades of melancholy

Can you see it in my eyes
Deep rotting fear

I have never
And I never will
Amount to anything
All I've done, All I will create
Falls by the wayside