Emerald City

Etch the memories on my brain
Watch it all fade to gray
Watch it all fading
Fear that cuts like a winter day
The whispering static, louder than everything

The static in my head is asking
Can I ever begin to change?
Weak hands grasp for something lost
Dissonance within my patchwork brain
Fade away from everything

Decaying away the symmetry
It's simple and frustrating
I'm a vision of the essence
I was once imitating
But it's just an empty remedy
I don't want to hold on to
I don't want to hold on

These words I've given meaning
But the deceit is screaming
I swear the intent was always honest
But I got caught up in what I was never promised

Failing my way to the bottom
Will I always be so absorbed in myself?

Fading further out of your heart
In the end I'll suffer the same
My own rapture
This will not end
My own rapture
This will not end

Decaying away the symmetry
I'm a vision of the essence
I once was imitating
But it's just an empty remedy
I don't want to hold on to

Decaying away the symmetry
It's simple and frustrating
I'm a vision of the essence
I was once imitating
But it's just an empty remedy
I don't want to hold on to

Will I let this be what defines?
Insecurity implied
Will I let this be what defines?
I don't want to hold on to
I won't hold on