Be

[00:05.33] There's something rotten inside me
[00:07.25] You told me to be better, ain't honestly likely
[00:09.30] You told me to be more, truth is I cannot be
[00:11.72] You told me to be smart, kept promising I'm free
[00:14.12] You told me to be strong and belong, alarmed me
[00:16.55] That otherwise my life won't be long and lively
[00:18.62] Do something when I'm gone they don't despise me
[00:21.06] You told me don't be wrong, forgotten that I'm me?
[00:23.40] Become something that I'm not
[00:25.79] Crushed between the four walls, ceiling and the floorboards
[00:28.65] I can't walk nor see forwards
[00:31.18] When I talk my speech Mordor
[00:33.29] Scrambled thoughts that need order
[00:35.25] Not in reach, they're lost in deep waters
[00:37.74] Drawing on sleep exhausts my zeal harder
[00:40.14] Caught in grief I've honestly authored
[00:42.94] I don't wanna swim no more, I wanna fly
[00:46.14] Looking up at those that do, but I don't identify
[00:50.98] I feel lonely when I try, my dreams always seem to die
[00:55.44] I keep falling, I'm so sorry, I'm appalling in your eyes
[01:00.51] (AY)
[01:00.87] Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not
[01:04.92] I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
[01:09.52] Yeah, hell yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself
[01:14.14] As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
[01:19.56] Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not
[01:23.77] I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
[01:28.29] Yeah, hell yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself
[01:32.88] As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
[01:38.12] Beep, beep, beep, beep-beep, beep
[01:40.52] Beat, I reach for the screen, I need sleep
[01:42.88] This sequence is bleak, it reeks, then repeats
[01:45.38] Week after week, increasing my fatigue, I feel weak
[01:47.80] Tough to conceive I still bleed
[01:49.50] When I seem to be proceeding on reflex, deceit
[01:51.86] That I could feel relief, that I could seek dreams
[01:54.23] Which seemingly all my experiences deplete
[01:56.76] See at the beginning they said that I would be winning
[01:58.82] What a beautiful thought, but one I no longer believe in
[02:01.35] Belief feels belittling now, I've been beaten
[02:03.75] Bested beast, depressed and defeated
[02:05.88] So rest in peace to me that felt different
[02:08.27] Guess I failed at living, guess I fell and I guess I'm frail
[02:11.26] So my failure isn't your fault, just the weather shifted
[02:13.97] And my feathers withered
[02:15.36] Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not
[02:19.52] I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
[02:24.01] Yeah, hell yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself
[02:28.75] As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
[02:33.94] Show me how to be, I'll show you how to not
[02:38.08] I will climb the tallest tree and tie the tightest knot
[02:42.55] Yeah, hell yeah, I'm flawed as hell, I could never love myself
[02:47.39] As long as I carry this guilt, I will never feel fulfilled
[02:51.72] (R-A-V)
[02:53.18] One lonely night, coming home from work to heavy rain
[02:55.63] Thirty feet from the train cross I cross everyday
[02:58.08] Bar halfway down, I don't hesitate
[02:59.55] Close both my eyes, oh for heaven's sake hit me today!
[03:03.03] I just want it all to be erased, disappear with the fear and despair
[03:06.37] Dissipate, all I've ever done is been afraid
[03:09.27] All I've ever done been is been this way
[03:11.25] You claim I ain't broken and you liken my wounds
[03:13.46] To things that you deal with, with ease, I should too
[03:16.06] You make me hate me more than I should hate you
[03:18.15] It's always you, you, you
[03:20.06] But mama, I'm me
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[03:27.92] I just wanna be
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[03:35.19] And I hope you're okay with that
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