Conduit - (13th Song About _____) - Anything Else. [Unfinished]

I don't know if it's worth it
But I've been thinking
Is there a way to pretend?
If only I'd been able to keep it together
Maybe we could start again

This recursive stupid shallow pain
But I'm still so afraid
All those years just spent running away
Look, I'm fucking tired, okay?

Do you remember?
Do you remember that day?
Do you remember?
Do you remember that day?

Was there a time I was free?
Is this all I can be?
This worthless terror in me
All that's left of my identity
Is there something that I am
That won't slip through my hands?
I'm clear and fragile as glass
Conduit all I am

I don't know if I miss you
But I've been thinking
What if those years made sense?
I don't think it's your fault
Not really, well, maybe
It's so hard to tell what I should resent

If I could fill in all the holes
Would I know what is right?
I wish that I could let you go
I wish I didn't dream of you at night

Do you remember?
Do you remember that day?
Do you remember?
Do you remember that day?

I wish that you could be a light in my life
I wish that I could let you set things right

Was there a time I was free?
Is this all I can be?
This worthless terror in me
All that's left of my identity
Is there something that I am
That won't slip through my hands?
I'm clear and fragile as glass
Conduit all I am