I Don't Want to Hurt You (14)

I just want this to end
I just want to get you
Out of my head.

Why did you have to
Complicate your love?
Why did you have to
Help me so much?

Did you know?
Be honest
Or were you
Just that clueless?
Is it real or histrionic?
Oh my god I feel so stupid
Did you know that I felt
Like I'd died around you?
I hate myself so much
For what you did

I hate myself so much
For writing this

I don't want to hurt you
I'm so scared of
Blaming all this on you

Truth be told,
I don't really believe myself at all
I'm just a dramatic bitch
Making you take the fall

Did you know?
Be honest
Or were you
Just that clueless?
Is it real or histrionic?
Oh my god I feel so stupid
I just want to write anything else
Oh god I fucking hate myself

I don't believe myself
But it still hurts.