Disguise

Do I feel this all the time?
Is there a way to go without you ever knowing
That I left it all behind
And I don't want to change you mind
Because I'm feeling low and that I don't deserve
All the good things in this life

And I know that no one minds
They don't care what I do, how the world seems to you
But it claws at me inside
You don't know what's on my mind
I don't need you to feel 'cause what I feel is real
But I can't help asking why

I'm standing on the edge
No one knows that I'm hanging by a thread
My mind is racing, I feel it caving in
I feel it happening again
And after all this time
I forgot that I'm alive

What do I do to pass the time?
I'm just walking around with my head down
Trying to build a new disguise
I'm thinking "why should I even try?"
When every choice is the same
And I'm going insane when

I'm standing on the edge
No one knows that I'm hanging by a thread
My mind is racing, I feel it caving in
I feel it happening again
And after all this time
I forgot that I'm alive

Now I'm staring at mirrors trying to find myself again
I've been asking him questions but nothing's making sense
I'm finding out
Nothing's making sense

I'm standing on the edge
No one knows that I'm hanging by a thread
My mind is racing, I feel it caving in
I feel it happening again
And after all this time
I forgot that I'm alive