I DON'T CARE

[00:07.93] Everybody loves a winner (winner)
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[00:24.05] Yeah, I swear they only love me when I'm not there
[00:31.40] I know you trust me but I don't care
[00:36.28] I swear, that I don't care
[00:40.27] I know you love me but I don't care
[00:43.03] You know I was born up at the top floor
[00:45.24] But I came out at the basement
[00:47.42] Mom wanted me to be a doctor
[00:49.51] But I came out as a patient
[00:51.90] Now I get a thousand DMs everyday
[00:53.61] I had a fan telling me that I saved him
[00:55.74] Saying that he loving everything I make
[00:57.57] And I couldn't take a single second out of my day to make his
[01:00.06] I'm just getting number everytime I see my numbers
[01:01.82] Everytime I see the bottom
[01:03.02] Everytime we see each other
[01:04.18] Everytime I pop a bottle
[01:05.20] Everytime I hit the lotto
[01:05.90] Everytime I see tomorrow
[01:07.33] I just really want another
[01:08.36] I'm just stuck between the gutter in the rain
[01:09.86] It ain't pain that I'm feeling
[01:11.09] But it's something in the same kinda vein that I'm healing from
[01:13.32] I wonder why I feel so little, 'cause I ain't been on the top
[01:15.78] I think I'm somewhere in the middle
[01:17.38] I swear, they only love me when I'm not there
[01:23.27] I know you trust me but I don't care
[01:28.23] I swear, that I don't care
[01:32.13] I know you love me but I don't care
[01:35.15] So what, so what, so what
[01:37.08] Hole on my soul, that shit looking like a donut (yeah)
[01:39.96] You and me can laugh together
[01:41.39] But I don't think that that's going to put it back together
[01:43.28] I've been living like I'm stuck under the covers
[01:45.14] I know this'll make 'em proud, but I know they gon' need another
[01:46.86] And another and another and another and another
[01:49.31] Like I'm DJ Khaled with a motherfuckin' stuttter, okay, yeah
[01:53.27] Today, I woke up, grabbed my phone to check the 'gram
[01:55.09] I started scrolling
[01:56.21] Got a message from a dude without a profile picture
[01:58.78] Shit was long as fuck, I thought that he was trolling
[02:00.30] So I tried to swipe it out but accidentally must of opened
[02:02.56] I said "Fuck it", guess I'll read it, now that it's already loaded
[02:04.54] Had a sudden premonition, but it faded in the moment
[02:06.75] So I focused, started reading
[02:07.97] Lemme try my best to quote it he wrote it, it said
[02:10.58] "My homie was a huge fucking fan, used to play your shit everyday
[02:14.34] He struggled with depression and he told me that
[02:16.07] The music was the thing that always set him straight
[02:18.18] But I guess it must have gotten too much for him
[02:19.89] Killed himself a couple months back, it's felt so fucking long
[02:22.24] But it reminded me of him when you popped up on my page
[02:24.64] And I went and started listening to a couple songs, so
[02:26.88] Keep doing you, bro"
[02:28.17] He followed up with a post from his friend
[02:29.82] It was a screenshotof my track
[02:30.97] I clicked the profile full of R.I.Ps in the comments
[02:33.82] Shit, I couldn't even stomach looking at, but all the sudden
[02:35.86] In the instant, everything felt grimmer
[02:37.61] Read the name again and realised it sounded familiar
[02:39.87] Clicked the DM to see if he had talked to me before
[02:42.24] Saw this was the same kid I consciously ignored a couple months ago
[02:45.87] I swear, they only love me when I'm not there
[02:52.07] I know you trust me but I don't care
[02:56.82] I swear, that I don't care
[03:00.90] I know you love me but I don't care
[03:03.63] Apathy
[03:06.53] There's no reason to be mad at me
[03:11.18] That's just how it has to be
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