Happier

[00:02.03] Hold the pain, keep it silent
[00:07.60] Hold the pain, keep it silent
[00:10.13] No, my time only runnin' out
[00:13.13] 'Bout the way that I'm smilin'
[00:15.94] Can nobody see I'm down?
[00:19.15] Do my best to be okay
[00:22.51] But that's all my feelin's allow
[00:25.26] These thoughts slip from me always
[00:29.08] All I think is how
[00:31.26] Now nothin' feels the same
[00:34.69] No, nothin' feels the same
[00:37.67] Searching for where I belong
[00:40.95] I just wanna be happier
[00:43.28] Now, nothin' feels the same
[00:46.44] No, nothin' feels the same
[00:49.92] Learning from where I went wrong
[00:53.02] I just wanna be happier (Yeah), yeah
[00:54.68] The more I learn, the more I realize how much I have left to learn
[00:57.37] Remember back when seven fifty an hour was all I earned
[01:00.44] And Mom was workin' overtime, just tryna make things work
[01:03.16] So every bill that came in the mail came with concern
[01:06.15] I thought maybe a degree could change some things for her and me
[01:09.44] Was even honored by the dean, that didn't matter at all
[01:12.50] I bought the lie they sold to me at the expense of my own dreams
[01:15.56] Said they had everything I need, just need to pay for it all
[01:18.41] Well, fuck that
[01:19.17] They used to tell me, "Fuck rap, you need to take a step back
[01:22.43] Look in the mirror, Mark, and look at yourself"
[01:24.58] They almost had me thinkin' I should put my dreams on the shelf
[01:27.61] They don't believe in me just like they don't believe in themselves
[01:30.54] I took that chip and then I wore it proudly
[01:32.72] Along the way I became fixated on those who doubt me
[01:36.21] Somehow lost sight of all the blessings that were all around me
[01:38.96] I let comparison and pressure almost fuckin' drown me
[01:42.06] Was lost until I found me
[01:43.65] I treated the world like it owed me
[01:46.31] My self-worth came from comments from people that didn't know me
[01:48.97] Feelin' lonely, feelin' like I let everybody else down
[01:52.02] Barely recognizin' anyone now, and all I think is-
[01:55.39] All I think is how
[01:56.63] Now nothin' feels the same
[01:59.72] No, nothin' feels the same
[02:02.77] Searching for where I belong
[02:05.49] I just wanna be happier
[02:07.70] Now, nothin' feels the same
[02:11.41] No, nothin' feels the same
[02:14.42] Learning from where I went wrong
[02:17.82] I just wanna be happier
[02:19.70] I wanna partake in this rat race, don't have a lot but have faith
[02:22.79] And how can I create when my mind is in such a bad place?
[02:25.86] I finally made some money, but more issues is what that made
[02:28.86] Remember thinkin' that I'll be happy once I reach that place
[02:31.84] But not so much, I did it, I felt the rush
[02:34.42] But on the way, I left some people and things I love in the dust
[02:37.68] That's when I finally realized how now enough is never enough
[02:40.62] I wear the smile on my face and nobody has called my bluff
[02:43.92] I'm honest, I may have added some commas
[02:45.94] But what's naïve to think that money could alleviate problems
[02:48.94] I let the numbers become all the validation I seek
[02:51.61] Now I know showin' my emotions doesn't mean that I'm weak
[02:55.05] Despite what others may think
[02:56.78] And maybe all along happiness was a choice
[02:58.73] And I listened to their opinions instead of my inner voice
[03:01.76] The old me just really wanted the world to love and respect me
[03:05.05] Now I'm sick of livin' life for everybody except me
[03:08.39] So don't text me, all I want is to fuckin' live in the moment
[03:11.12] Should appreciate the journey a little more and I know it
[03:14.16] Kept around the ones I trust and cut everybody else out
[03:17.17] Barely recognizin' anyone now, and all I think is-
[03:20.15] All I think is how
[03:21.46] Now nothin' feels the same
[03:24.40] No, nothin' feels the same
[03:27.97] Searching for where I belong
[03:30.83] I just wanna be happier
[03:33.10] Now, nothin' feels the same
[03:36.57] No, nothin' feels the same
[03:39.85] Learning from where I went wrong
[03:43.02] I just wanna be happier
[03:49.70] Searchin' for where I belong
[03:55.15] I just wanna be happier now
[03:58.71] (I just wanna—)
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