Deserve

Today made her real again
I've been so dumb, I have been so dumb
How I must have hurt you
How you must have felt so alone
Everything's clear again
I'm not in love, I am not in love
I only want to be held by one pair of arms
What I make her into, it has so little to do with her
But as for you, as for you
You're everything I've ever thought you were
And I don't deserve you
Today made her real again
And I'm not proud, I am not proud
Proud of what's now ended
The feelings I have messed with
Everything's clear again
I got so lost, this time I really lost my way
I'd think of you today
And feel my heart slowly break