Optimal

I know that it's here to stay
But I'm trying to get away through pain
Does anything mean anything?
But I'm stuck here trying to heal again

Not ideal, not your rose colored lens
Am I cynical or real again
Not ideal, not your rose colored lens
I just need to feel alive every now and then

I want something to die for so I can love again
Scared that I won't be able to look above again

And they will all leave
Attachment is pain
Love is death
Loneliness is all the same

Please help me find something that makes me feel alive
That gives me a reason to not be afraid to die

I want something to die for so I can love again
Scared that I won't be able to look above again

I see the smoke in front of me
I feel the warmth again
I hope it doesn't kill me
'Cause loneliness will