Misleading the Story

He said words knowing full well are suspect.
Felt the burn in his lower intestine.
I say get past the moment, let it subside.
I don't know how I did, but I got here.
Candlelit in my mind's eye, but not clear.
I know, I know.
I know the truth is in-between.
I don't want to feel it so I won't.
Even when I lose it I'll implode.
Every lie is cyanide - a dose to keep the secret.
I don't want to feel it so I don't.
Sad song: I defect to write it.
Dried tears - do your best to hide it.
I can't handle your face in this moment.
Quick find the exit.
Quick find the exit.
I don't want to feel it so I won't.
Even when I lose it I'll implode.
Every lie is cyanide - a dose to keep the secret.
I don't want to feel it so I don't.
I don't care.
I don't care because they like me better when I did what they wanted.
I don't care.
I don't care because I like me better when I am cold and reckless.
Upset and inciting an inner war.
Upset and misleading the story.
Upset and inciting an inner war.
Upset and misleading...
I don't want to feel it so I won't.
Even when we lose it I'll implode.
Every lie is cyanide - a dose to keep the secret.
I don't want to feel it so I don't.
So I don't.
Quick find the exit!