Pinch Me

I’m not the same
That I was
When I was seventeen
All those old friends
That I had
They don’t remember me
Musta blocked me out
Of their memories
It’s so heavenly
Who they pretend to be
I can’t keep up
Can’t sit still
There’s no reason
I should chill
On my own
So alone
I can’t tell
If this real
Someone pinch me
Wake up
Someone tell me to get up
Someone pinch come get me
Come help cause it’s too much
I’m too protective
With my friends
I start projecting
Onto them
I guess I’m not
Everything I thought that I was
Wish I had it in me to stop
But I can’t (fuck)
I’m distant
I’m passive
Unavailable
And reactive
I’m sick and tired
Of the action
I need some melatonin
And a fraction
I need everyone
To stop acting
I’m so past it
So I’m passing
On everything
That you’re passing
I’m tryna make something
That’ll last
I can’t keep up
Can’t sit still
There’s no reason
I should chill
On my own
So alone
I can’t tell
If this real
Someone pinch me
Wake up
Someone tell me to get up
Someone pinch come get me
Come help cause it’s too much
Sold my soul so i could make rent
I’m running out of patience
I’m trying hard but it don’t make sense
It’s like I’m half asleep
Like I’m living in a dream
Feels like everything i see
Is just so slightly out of reach
It’s like I’m half awake
Barely getting through the day
Feels like everything i say
Don’t come out the right way
I can’t keep up
Can’t sit still
There’s no reason
I should chill
On my own
So alone
I can’t tell
If this real
Someone pinch me
Wake up
Someone tell me to get up
Someone pinch come get me
Come help cause it’s too much