Popular Monster

[00:02.81] Yeah
[00:05.96] I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
[00:08.49] I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
[00:11.46] Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
[00:14.45] I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
[00:17.53] I battle with depression, but the question still remains
[00:20.64] Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
[00:23.60] And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
[00:26.68] Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?
[00:29.44] Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
[00:31.99] And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
[00:34.83] It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[00:39.48] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
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[00:46.31] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[00:50.16] I'm a popular, popular monster
[00:52.55] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[01:01.36] I'm a popular, popular monster
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[01:09.92] I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
[01:13.26] Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
[01:15.43] I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
[01:18.52] How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
[01:21.35] Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
[01:24.50] Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
[01:27.30] But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
[01:30.31] Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
[01:33.32] Motherfucker, now you got my attention
[01:35.83] I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
[01:38.79] And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
[01:41.88] Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
[01:45.07] I fell asleep at the wheel again
[01:48.05] Crashed my car just to feel again
[01:50.60] It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[01:54.73] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
[02:01.64] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[02:06.06] I'm a popular, popular monster
[02:07.99] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[02:14.99] I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
[02:19.70] Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
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[02:31.30] We're sick and tired of wondering
[02:34.46] Praying to a god that you don't believe
[02:37.14] We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
[02:40.19] So the question I ask is
[02:42.30] Oh, where the fuck is your god now?
[02:46.23] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
[03:01.20] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[03:05.26] I'm a popular, popular monster
[03:07.59] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[03:11.97] I'm not a popular, popular monster
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[03:24.89] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[03:27.74] I'm a popular, popular monster
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