The Origin of My Depression

[01:49.03] Love is not the origin of my depression
[01:57.04] Gender dysphoria is not the origin of my depression
[02:03.99] Poverty is not the origin of my depression
[02:10.74] I try to grasp it
[02:14.58] And every answer fails
[02:19.14] You are not the origin of my depression
[02:25.24] People ignoring me is not the origin of my depression
[02:32.69] Awkward social interactions are not the origin of my depression
[02:40.10] You are not
[02:42.85] The origin
[02:50.04] Failing everything is not the origin of my depression
[02:57.82] Disappearing is not the origin of my depression
[03:01.94] Not eating is not the origin of my depression
[03:08.17] But passing out helps
[03:11.15] It makes me me forget about it
[03:13.75] Your white dress
[03:19.81] I just dont know what it is
[03:25.46] Its nowhere in my room
[03:29.70] Its not stolen by a lover
[03:34.09] Its not ever... its not secret
[03:43.46] I try to think of every possible reason why
[03:47.78] You wouldn't love me
[03:55.27] But i don't know
[03:58.93] I don't know why i don't love
[04:03.72] There is no reason why
[04:09.18] Its aleatory
[04:12.66] You are the origin of my depression
[04:33.75] All the doors are slamming shut
[05:08.26] I used to be so confident
[05:20.41] Your war crimes so adorable
[05:36.16] I miss your white dress
[05:47.38] Every image of
[05:59.87] Is an image not of you
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