Blood

Hey Mama
I know you ain't doin' the greatest
But maybe one day I'll be famous
I'll get you out of that fucking apartment
You been in since Christmas
Back when I was 16 and reckless
I never told you how much I appreciated everything you did for me
I was too ashamed to speak
Reading through the notes you wrote about me in fifth grade
You probably never thought I'd see
I know that it was tough when you and daddy split up
But you made it through
It showed me how strong you can be
I know you said, "be tough"
When me and Chelsea broke up
But it's been a year and stuff and it still bothers me
Everything you ever said to me
I listened very carefully, I kept it in my heart
'Cause you were always there for me
Even when you caught me smoking weed at 17
You said, "you're better than that"
But you weren't even fucking mad at me
I know that you raised me at church
And when I told you that I don't have a religion
And you said it hurt
It hurt me to know that you're in pain,
But even though we think differently, I still love you the same

I hate it
I hope I've been the greatest brother ever
I could never top the level of the sister that you've been to me
And I know I barely see them
But remember to give Erelyn and Aria a kiss for me
You taught me how to swim when I was five
And you never told on me when I was dumb enough to drink and drive
I was pretty stupid at 18
But none of the mistakes I made would ever make you hate me
Even that time I screamed and threw a fit
Cause you wouldn't get off the phone
I was pissed
I was probably 9 or 11
Around the time that daddy told us
Brian went to heaven
And then there's our biggest sister
She's moved around a couple times
She knows we all miss her
We don't speak much, barely keep in touch
But just know that I'll always love you no matter what
The distance between you and me
Could never make me think less of the pretty woman you became to be
And when you get a chance when you hear this
Say hello to Tyler and Sidney for me

Hey Dad
The first time I saw you cry, I was 6
But you're the strongest man I know
That's why your name's on my wrist
You showed me how to work when I was 12
You said if anybody ever gives me shit, then go and give them hell
I know your mama ain't doin' the greatest either
I really need to get my ass up and see her
She probably doesn't know that she created an idol
Only someone like you could deserve the title
I never really told you what you meant to me
I was busy being mad at you for being mad at me
For doing stupid shit, like
Messing with a girl who had a boyfriend in the military
I was lucky not to get my ass beat
But I probably should've so it would've knocked some sense in me
You always said that you were proud of me
Had a rough patch, but had it figured out when I was 23
I'll never take for granted what you've done for me
I'll make my dash count like you said in 2003
I'll keep pushing on and keep my head up
And one day, I'll be just like you
You'll see