On the Floor

I'm trying
But still I close my eyes

The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine
Lock the door

The constant buzzing
All through the night

The fighting
Rips me all up inside
On the floor

I pace, I run my mouth
I pray and wait
I cross out his name on the page

(How long 'til) This washes away?
(How long 'til) My body is safe?
(How long 'til) I walk in the light?
(How long 'til) This heart isn't mine?

The rise and fall
Of his chest on me

I'm trying
But still it's all I see

The violent
Current of energy

I hide it
Away and underneath
Lock the door

I shake, I promise everyday
To change
I cross out his name on the page

(How long 'til) This washes away?
(How long 'til) My body is safe?
(How long 'til) I walk in the light?
(How long 'til) This heart isn't mine?
Take this wildness away

I'm trying
But still I close my eyes

The dreaming
Bringing his face to mine
Out the door

I pace, I run my mouth
I pray to change
I cross out his name on the page

(How long 'til) This washes away?
(How long 'til) My body is safe?
(How long 'til) This heart isn't mine?
I just want him in my arms

I just want him in my arms